To My Sons
Boys,
I decided to write this letter to apologize for the things I could not teach or failed to guide you through. You have given me so much love and have been bright spots in my life. Over the years, I have tried to correct myself when faced with new challenges as you grew.
Dee, you being first, I placed too much pressure on you, and for that, I apologize. I always envisioned you as a polished version of me in male form, but with your personality guiding the way. It took me a while to realize that just because I chose a path does not mean it should be yours.
You are my first genius.
I adore you and respect the life you are building.
Zay, my miracle baby…
You are a remarkable young man with so much talent. I want to apologize for pushing you too hard in school. Education is important, but so is balance. Continue feeding your mind—my future astrophysicist.
K, you give me life.
Your energy keeps me going and wears me out at the same time. I want to apologize for expecting more from you based on others instead of listening to you. That was my mistake, and I promise to do better.
I love you all deeply.
I will continue to grow as a mother just as you grow into young men. I want you to be individuals, not versions of me.
I am proud of each of you.
Love,
Momma